Letters to Slimmy, Chapter 36

hey slimmy. i've been mulling over various thoughts and emotions running through me and i'm feeling a bit conflicted. hear me out. there's this thing that, on one hand is a total turnoff, but on the other hand i find oddly intriguing. my brain doesn't know which way to turn. this is unusual for me...i've never really hung on the fence with this stuff before. that in itself is also oddly intriguing. remember how stubborn i was? i'm getting soft, slim. anyway, there's this push-pull force at play that causes breakouts of other issues. a bit complex to say the least, which also intrigues me! i like to keep things simple, so why do i feel as if my adoration is misplaced in a sense? and why do i really not care? ha! something's opening, slim. love, j

Letters to Slimmy, Chapter 35

whoa, long time no talk Slimmy! i've gone through ups and downs, more downs than ups, but i emerged with a plan. going forth on a journey with no set direction in mind. wherever the road leads me, and all that jazz. anyway, i've been feeling much better by way of my own methods of therapy, which are helping immensely, and i will be adding more methods forthwith. (forthwith. heh heh.) you know my situation right, Slim? well i'm just biding my time, putting a plan into motion, taking things as they come day by day. that's all i can do, you know. i noticed i'm much more thoughtful, and dare i say a bit more hopeful, than usual. however, i still have my transgressions. but i'm working on it, Slim, i'm working on it. i feel a little more relaxed and cautiously optimistic if you will. i've emptied my soul of past hurts...well, at least a lot of it leaked out...and i feel a lot lighter. there wull always be storm clouds hovering above, but i must remember the old saying 'this too shall pass.' and they will pass, and i will watch as they float on by, and be grateful for their provocative nature.

Letters to Slimmy, Chapter 34

hey slim. what a day i've had. it's been a day filled with freak outs. i'm freaking out about this, freaking out about that. i'm freaking out, man. but whatever. i'm tired, and i'm giving my freak outs away. i can't handle them anymore. other than that, things have been busy. did you notice how creative i've been? this would've burned you, i'm sure, but i have no worries about that now. in the past, baby. i'm doing me now. haha.

so i've been having all these weird dreams with you in them. some are very vivid, light last night's, others are vague and fleeting. they make no sense as far as i can conclude. but i guess if i go back and really think about it i might see clues to my subsconcious. don't know.

anyway, they're the same with you-know-who being a you-know-what. is this supposed to make me stronger? are there clues there, too? i'm trying to stop and listen...there's got to be a message here somewhere. i'll keep listening.

see ya later.

love,
j