Letters to Slimmy, Chapter 36

hey slimmy. i've been mulling over various thoughts and emotions running through me and i'm feeling a bit conflicted. hear me out. there's this thing that, on one hand is a total turnoff, but on the other hand i find oddly intriguing. my brain doesn't know which way to turn. this is unusual for me...i've never really hung on the fence with this stuff before. that in itself is also oddly intriguing. remember how stubborn i was? i'm getting soft, slim. anyway, there's this push-pull force at play that causes breakouts of other issues. a bit complex to say the least, which also intrigues me! i like to keep things simple, so why do i feel as if my adoration is misplaced in a sense? and why do i really not care? ha! something's opening, slim. love, j